Struggle

Well, what is a struggle? Websters says "to proceed with difficulty or great effort". Are you struggling with anything right now? Sometimes we struggle to get up in the morning, make dinner, work out. Everyone has them, but it is hard to learn to cope with them in different ways. Food has almost always been my coping mechanism. Today I was told to not really workout till my ear got better. (that is another story), and now I can't use that to help cope. What do I do? I have a lot going on right now, just like everyone, but I am to chose a different coping mechanism. How? I have blogged about this sort of thing before, but I think as one chooses a weight loss journey or any journey you have to face your issues your struggles usually more than once.

I was doing my bible study today. It is Esther by Beth Moore and it was talking about failure to decide and I had a light bulb moment. I pray I can really apply it from this day forward. We get choices everywhere, with food, with obeying God, with exercise, with our time and if we fail to decide what to do in the struggle than we may risk gaining weight, our destiny, our health, our relationships. I never want to fail to to decide. We should be intentional about our choices, our lives, our attitudes.

Believe in myself

I was reading an article today from one of the biggest loser contestants....and she is all about believing in yourself. Do you believe in yourself? Do I believe in myself? I do in some areas, but when it comes to weight loss it is hard. I know I have come a long way, but I have never fully succed at this journey. I have tried many times and failed. It is disappointing, frustrating, and makes me feel like I can't do it. I have had a rough few weeks.....not everyday, but moments. I could give you a long list of excuses(hormones, hormones, and hormones, and life, and I have been sick.) I had another one today. I was so hungry and wanted a snack. I made my protien drink, but still wanted a crunch....so it went like this in my mind "one nilla waffer will not be bad, you can have just one". That one thought grew into too many wafers. And after swallowing my apple cider vinegar...the consuqence of my choices of eating, I thought this is just like sin. It is that one thought that creeps into you mind, and we act on it, and it turns into too many whatevers.........We have to nip it in the bud at the thought, the temptation.

I want to have resolve like Daniel did....Danile 1:8 says "But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with they royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way." Resolve is a strong word that means to be devoted to principle and to be committed to a course of action. I want that.



I can believe in myself, because Jesus believes me. I have to get up and move on, Jesus is the lifter of my head. I don't have to hang it down, even when I have made a mistake. I can brush off and keep at it.

In the bible study I am doing the other day, I heard a new phrase..."false shelter". I think this is sometimes what food can be for me. I am learning though to not let food have control of me, but me have control of food.

Tummy Ache

So much to confess...where do I start? I have exercised now 3x for two weeks, I only have 2 more times and I will have done it for 3 weeks. Yeah! I have played racquetball for the first time.....anyone give lessons?? It is a little comical I am sure, but a fun date night with my man.


However I have fallen off the wagon a bit. I have lots of excuses....stress, its been really busy, work, discouragement, but the only thing it has given me is a tummy ache. Was it worth it? No. And I now have the after guilt. But, I will learn from this. I can make a different and better choice next time. I can fight through the temptaions. I can do something different with my emotions. I do not have to chose to feed them! Next time...I can take a mommy time out, pray, call someone, take a walk, or blog.

One more thing to admitt: I have been craving Dt. Coke for about a week....I had a sip tonight..and Yuck. I am free of Dt. Coke.

Exercise

EXERCISE................uggg. This is the hard part right now. I have met the goals that I set previously and it is time for new ones. I know this needs to be one, but ......

I have said in an older post that I realize that I just need to make time for it....but it is so difficult for me to do. I am working out on occasion, but everyday....or even 3 times seems so far fetched. I did do a 1 mile walk today.

I admitt I am the queen of excuses! I am a girl who likes to sleep at least 7 hours, usually more and I am lazy. Proverb6:9 says "How long will you lie there, you sluggard? When will you get up from your sleep?" I need someone to call me at 5 every morning as say this to me, or remind me every afternoon.

So with that said...my goal for this week is 3 workouts. I did in the past I can do it again...wish me luck.

this is a bigger before pic....

Me and my girls

31 Pounds ligther......







It is crazy to think, I have lost 31 pounds. I have come so far and yet have so far to go. I love fitting into things again. I am wearing the same pants in this picture as my before picture, however this time I had trouble keeping them up.....LOL

Update

Well, hello out there in blog world. I can not believe it is October 4. I have now lost 28.2 pounds and my wedding fits. Yeah. I hated that I could not wear my wedding ring for so long. Not that it did not mean I was married, but it is a symbol and very pretty one at that. I like having it on my finger. It feels so good to place it on my hand. It has been over 2 years since I could wear it.

Have you ever wanted to wear that something special? You can do it my friend. Making choices can be very hard, especially the ones that are good and right. It is so hard sometimes not to default to old habitis. But new ones that help you be heathly for you, your family, and help you wear your wedding ring are worth it.

What is your wedding ring? Are you ready to choses to wear it.?