Ever since December I have felt unstable in my transformation journey. I let the storms of life shake me...and at times allowed old habits to take over.
I have not quit chasing it, but I have felt so much uncertainty. Honestly, I have let some of the challenges I have faced be excuses as well. I have thrown myself a pity party or two....okay maybe more, but who's counting??
Yesterday, as I listened to the pastor at church I received some certainty....confirming the challenge I will be starting today...more on that in a few.
The pastor said something about adjustment, and I realized:
Sometimes our bodies need an adjustment, so we visit a chiropractor...but sometimes our spirits need an adjustment and we need to go to the cross.
That is how I felt this morning. Jesus was adjusting me. Although adjustments can be uncomfortable the after effects are worth it. This morning Jesus used verses I have heard and read to tenderly adjust me on my journey.
The message at church came from Matthew 16:24-28. In verse 24 is says "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."
I know He has called me to be healthy. Part of following Him means taking care of the body He gives breath to. To be healthy I must deny myself things to allow Him to transform me. I have to lay down certain foods. I have to give myself boundaries. When I clutter myself with food, I have a hard time hearing and seeing Jesus. My comfort should be in Christ and not food.
As we read verse 26 "...or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?", the questions asked were....what's the exchange? What do I want to pursue? I thought, am I willing to exchange the transformation and journey Jesus has blessed me with thus far for the false comfort of food.....my answer is no. No, I am not! I want to be obedient. I want to follow Him.
"What do I have to lay down to follow Christ?" the pastor asked. For me there are a few things I need to lay down, but as I chase this year, I have to lay down relying on food in the midst of a storm. I am so much like Peter when Jesus called him out of the boat. (see Matthew 14:22-33) I have glanced away from Jesus after stepping out of the boat and I have begun to sink. But yesterday, Jesus grabbed my hand. He has not brought me this far to let me drown!
I posted on my facebook page a while back "I don't want to become "skinny" to show what I can do. I want to be healthy to show how God can transform from the inside out!!!! Be courageous enough to let Him make me different. Over come fear of what I can't do and allow Him to show me what I can!!!" - Shelly
This is still true. I know Christ is in the business of transformation. I know I can do all things through Him. I know Jesus is worth getting out of the boat for. As I chase what matters this year, I know He is worth chasing. I know He wants me to chase health. I know He wants me to take up my cross and follow Him.
So today, I am getting back on track and I am participating in weight loss for warriors. A challenge set up to help people in their quest for health, but also to help our nation's heroes and their families.
Many of my family members and friends have served, some still are. I appreciate the sacrifice they have made and are making.
I am honored to be apart of signing up for a challenge that will help me on my journey, but that will help raise money for 31Heroes and The Travis Manion Foundation.
If you would like to help me reach my goal of $350 please donate here. Thank you so much!
What do you have to lay down to follow Christ? What are you going to chase in 2014?