At least this time I will not be needing a walker or crutches afterwards!!!! Gotta look on the bright side, right??
Here is a brief time line of the last 3 years:
2012- Right meniscus surgery, followed by weeks of physical therapy
2013- Left meniscus surgery, followed by weeks of physical therapy
2013 - Pneumonia for about 2 months
2013- Major dental work, beginning in Feb lasting 15-18 months, including surgeries, root canals, and a new bridge
During this time in November of 2014 I wrote this post Feeling like He isn't Coming Through and a short 4 months later in March of this year I posted about my monthly focus Be Still.
If you didn't click on those links, here's the cliff notes: I was feeling like God wasn't coming through for me and He gently reminded me He already had and after worrying and fretting He reminded me to focus on being still. My mind was running crazy for numerous reasons, one was a thyroid nodule and a biopsy to go with it.
I have continued to focus on my one word for the year with a different focus every month. I have continued my journey to health. However, while making progress with workouts, I have not seemed to make a lot of progress with numbers. Yes, I confess my eating could be a little cleaner on the weekends, but all and all to not have much difference has had me frustrated, I have even gained.
Maybe, just maybe the story below is why and maybe, just maybe after it is "fixed" I can continue to make progress!!!!
About a month ago I went to the doctor for shortness of breath and coughing and was treated for bronchitis. On August 31st I had my follow up with my ENT regarding this nodule and was sent for a sonogram later in the week and on September 2nd I choose my focus Be Fighting, little did I know I would need to include surgery in that fight. Apparently this shortness of breath and cough could actually be due to this thyroid nodule putting pressure on my trachea. It has grown and there are now 2 on the right side measuring over 5cm and 2 on left that are small. There is small chance that there is cancer, I have had two docs say while possible they do not think they will find any. I was talking to a friend the other night and told her that the doc said 10-20% chance it could be and she said that is 80-90% chance it is not. I like those chances and that outlook!!!
In July I heard Christine Caine preach, she had just gone through thyroid cancer. The friend that attended with me had just been through thyroid surgery. I am believing I don't have cancer, but I learned a lot from her that night and from her post regarding facing the struggle. Since I know that I know that God has already come through for me, I want to face this surgery like Christine Caine faced hers.
I confess I have a tendency to kinda freak out about surgery. I have been through a lot of health struggles in the last 3 years and just in the last 4 months a lot of personal struggles. It would be no surprise if I just lost it......but as Herbert Cooper says, "But God changes everything."
Whatever you are going through God really does change everything!!
I have a history of letting fear take hold of me. I love what Christine
Caine says in her post "I had a faith battle ahead of me, and the real enemy was not cancer, but fear." I have a faith battle ahead of me too, and the real enemy is not the slight possibility of cancer, or surgery, but it is fear.
I want to choose to be fighting. I want to choose to not be paralyzed by fear, and I want to choose to allow God to change everything.
Read the post by Christine Caine here. May it encourage you in whatever battle your facing.