Here is what I learned:
I am consistently inconsistent!!!! Okay, maybe I should give myself a little credit.... I am consistent, just not consistent on the right things all the time.
I am really good at consistently worrying. I have a tendency to allow my mind to run places. If I lost a pound for every place it's ran this month....I would be at my goal weight and then some!!!
I showed a lot of consistency after trying out for Extreme Weight Loss, but when life threw me curve balls I went back to many old behaviors and mind sets. This months focus has opened my eyes to this.
I also learned that I tend to get paralyzed by my own stuff and I need to take up my mat and walk. (see Mark 2:9)
I am not where I was physically or mentally, but I am not where I started either, and I know that my journey is not over!
If you have read some of my blog, then you know I have faced a lot of health stuff...knee surgery, dental stuff (over a year of dental stuff...but I think there may be light at the end of the tunnel), and in January/February I got bronchitis. I could not kick it. (The congestion is still lingering.) My ear would not clear up, so I made an appointment with an ENT. At the visit I learned I have mild hearing loss due to the fluid (this was no surprise I have hearing loss anyway from my ear history), however the doc found a nodule on my thyroid. (It's like taking your car to a mechanic....always one more thing or at least that is how it has been for me over the last year plus). Although nodules are common, he wanted blood work and a biopsy.
At first it was the fact that I was dealing with one more thing that got the best of me, but then my mind ran. Again, if I lost a pound for every place it ran, I would be at my goal weight and then some.....except instead of handling this by turning to Jesus, exercise, or friends I turned to my old friend food.
In February I found myself trying to figure out a plan to help me on my weight loss journey again and with my health. Constantly searching, but not consistently doing. (So thankful for the person encouraging me in this area right now, but that is another post.)
All of this mind running and searching has lead me to March's focus.....Be Still.
I love the definition of still: remaining in place or at rest, free from sound or noise,