I weighed on 8-16-11 and lost another 2.4 pounds. Yeah. Praise God. I am so thankful for what I lost, but its been a rough week.
God has shown me I am too hard on my kids this week. This has been a hard lesson to learn. I thought changing my food was hard! Changing emotionally and spiritually can be just as challenging. I hear alot of people say kids grow up so fast. Could it be because we force them too? For me I realized that sometimes higher expectations are placed on my little ones than should be. I think this can hinder their imaginations, play, learning how to do things, exploring the world around them, and their relationship to Jesus. I pray I learn to give my kids the grace and mercy God has given me.
Another thing I have been learning this week is true feelings, and how communicating them is HARD! Do we really communicate well? Do we really feel well? I do not!!! For as long as I can recall, I have stuffed things with food. Eating raw, healthy, foods does not stuff anger, hurt, anxiety, fear, stress, and many other feelings down. Food has been like sweeping things under the rug, and now I have to clean it up! I maybe fearfully and wonderfully made, but I added a mess under my rug. I am actually having to confront how I feel, and I confess I do not know how to deal with it. I am learning for the first time in my life, who I am without processed food, without sugar, without junk. I am going to have to learn to depend on God more than I ever have. Emotional eating adds so much baggage both physically, spiritually, and emotionally and I am ready to get rid of it.