Merry Christmas Friends. I am so looking forward to all the holiday fun with loved ones even the crazy tiffs that always seem to occur. As you know I have written before about my weight loss journey and I ended up not doing so well. Diets are such a struggle, and the last time I knew I really needed to work through my issues with overeating, not just lose the weight and get healthy and I tried, however it was not meant to be at the time.
Since late October I have been attending Overeaters Anonymous. I felt so strange at first, attending meetings so similar to AA, and not paying someone to weight me in and analyze my food journal. It was people like me who have issues with food. I chose to quit drinking dark sodas again when I began attending meetings, the 27th will be 60 days. Yeah! Through attending meetings, getting a sponsor(who rocks by the way), and beginning to work through the steps of the program I have come to understand how much I like an alcholic I am. I have always understood that I was an emotional eater, but I never realized how unmanageable it was for me. I have always been so scared to let God be my strenght and comfort where I use food. I have come to realize there are certain foods that if I have one bite I am sucked into the overeating compulsive cycle. My gift to myself and my gift to Jesus this Christmas is to not have sweets. Today is day 4. I have done great so far. I have even seen that it is different from a diet. When dieting there are rules to follow and I get caught up in that, if I break them I feel bad about myself. With this I choose to not eat sweets, if I wanted it I could have it. I am not breaking or following rules. I am choosing. I want to lay down this idol.
May your Christmas be great friends. Jesus is the reason for the season!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Wow. I am a total slacker! I can not believe it has been almost a year since I posted something. I confess, I quit doing the diet program I was doing and thought I could manage on my own. Guess what that did not work, however I did run my first 5k in May! That was amazing. I trained doing the couch to 5k program and ran the whole thing in about an hour. I had only done 30 minute runs, but after I ran the first 30 minutes, I wanted to finish, even if it was at a turtles pace. I found I really like running. So, my goal is to begin blogging again about my journey.